It was a ghastly afternoon, or so she heard her maid say before leaving the house. She did not complain to Emma, at least not out loud, as her facial expressions were doing all the talking for her. There was no wind, but there was a chill in the air, the sky overcast, and puddles of leaves covered the paths in Hyde Park. The sight was not inviting. Emma's cheeks were pink by the time she reached the lovely place, but she did not care. Perhaps she ought to. If not for herself, surely she should have taken into consideration her maid's health. They had taken the carriage to get to one of Emma's favorite bookstores in search of an appropriate birthday present for one of her friends, the mere reason she stayed in London now that the season was almost arriving to an end. Well, it wasn't the main cause, she had others, but only one with an invitation she had RSVPed. There was mist in Hyde Park, she realized, and it made her see her own breath. That made her smile, remembering the times when she used to play house and pretended she was her father, smoking. She did not love the man, but surely had fun imitating him. She sighed, deeply. As the third, she used to have fun, until the complicated world of adulthood dawned upon her, and she was forced to understand the intricacies of it. As an upperclass woman, she did not feel like she had the right to define the world as cruel, but she did. Especially for a woman. If she were a man, the ton would have called her a rake or a scholar. But as she was not, she feared the word "spinster". All those thoughts had been instigated by the modern world woman refusing to marry and interest in the changing of the world not unknown by Emma, although not shared. Not completely, for who was not scared of change? The youngest of society, like Elena, thought differently. And her little sister would often try to argue about it, with no success.
No, Emma fancied herself a peacemaker, and the only fights she ought to know were those in her books. She looked down at the basket she was holding, the weight of it a consolation. The best part of the end of the season was the marvelous quietude of the country, and the fact that she could read to her heart's content. Sometimes, she had to beg Edmund, or even Elijah, to buy her books and add them to the house library. There were volumes a lady should not be seen being interested in. Faust, First Part, by Goethe, was probably one of them. She thought of the books she had bought that day. Tales of Shakespeare, by Charles Lamb; The Legend of Sleepy Hollow and Knickerbocker's History of New York, Complete, by Washington Irving; Marmion, by Walter Scott; Travels Into the Interior of Africa, by Mungo Park... The basket was heavy, indeed. It was a guilty pleasure to buy books even when she had yet to finish the one she was reading. Needless to say, she had not read every single book in the house library. And she would surely never do so, if she kept adding new volumes to it.
She slowed her pace, as she did one of her favorite passtimes, one of the best forms of entertaining: people-watching. It was a way to not focus on herself. It was unlikely, certainly impossible, but she wanted to believe that her family was the one shattered one. At least, in the upper class. She never dared to imagine what it was to be, well, less fortunate. She did hear the maids and cooks talking about it, as she used to seek their company when she was a child, and still did. When solitude became unbearable and London seemed an ocean away. The ton was always organizing and hosting charitable causes, and she'd like to think they were capable of wonderful things when properly encouraged. But they were, in a woeful ironic way, capable of the worst as well, like ignoring the starving ones in London as easily as if they were flies. She swallowed, then tripped, too focused as she was on her own thoughts, and had to drop the basket full of books rather than fall forward on the ground herself. She made a ridiculous squeal, cut off by the cool air that hit her lungs. And the hands of her maid, who started to lecture her in the faintest of whispers. Emma did not hear a word, her eyes on the books that had been scattered. She clamped her mouth shut, feeling ever so guilty for not having paid attention to her steps.
No, Emma fancied herself a peacemaker, and the only fights she ought to know were those in her books. She looked down at the basket she was holding, the weight of it a consolation. The best part of the end of the season was the marvelous quietude of the country, and the fact that she could read to her heart's content. Sometimes, she had to beg Edmund, or even Elijah, to buy her books and add them to the house library. There were volumes a lady should not be seen being interested in. Faust, First Part, by Goethe, was probably one of them. She thought of the books she had bought that day. Tales of Shakespeare, by Charles Lamb; The Legend of Sleepy Hollow and Knickerbocker's History of New York, Complete, by Washington Irving; Marmion, by Walter Scott; Travels Into the Interior of Africa, by Mungo Park... The basket was heavy, indeed. It was a guilty pleasure to buy books even when she had yet to finish the one she was reading. Needless to say, she had not read every single book in the house library. And she would surely never do so, if she kept adding new volumes to it.
She slowed her pace, as she did one of her favorite passtimes, one of the best forms of entertaining: people-watching. It was a way to not focus on herself. It was unlikely, certainly impossible, but she wanted to believe that her family was the one shattered one. At least, in the upper class. She never dared to imagine what it was to be, well, less fortunate. She did hear the maids and cooks talking about it, as she used to seek their company when she was a child, and still did. When solitude became unbearable and London seemed an ocean away. The ton was always organizing and hosting charitable causes, and she'd like to think they were capable of wonderful things when properly encouraged. But they were, in a woeful ironic way, capable of the worst as well, like ignoring the starving ones in London as easily as if they were flies. She swallowed, then tripped, too focused as she was on her own thoughts, and had to drop the basket full of books rather than fall forward on the ground herself. She made a ridiculous squeal, cut off by the cool air that hit her lungs. And the hands of her maid, who started to lecture her in the faintest of whispers. Emma did not hear a word, her eyes on the books that had been scattered. She clamped her mouth shut, feeling ever so guilty for not having paid attention to her steps.
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With love,
Lady Emma Edevane
Lady Emma Edevane